Do I Want To? ~ A Poem

Do I want to get to know you?
Do I even want to try?
Of all the other times before,
I tried, and then I died.

God says if we move to save our lives we lose it,
and lose it I just may,
if it can keep me from experiencing
another painful day.

Do I want to dare to hope now?
Do I want to dare to dream?
Of all the times before I tried,
I was condemned for being me.

Yet through the pain and loss I’ve felt
through wounds I never thought I’d bear
I feel hope rise within me,
bubbling up through my despair.

God tells me my real questions aren’t
“Do I want to hope and dream?”
Instead He simply asks,
“Do you think you can trust me?“

“I can bear all your despair,
carry all your pain.
Those wounds you never wanted
were aimed at me instead.

Don’t let the devil tell you
you aren’t who I inspired,
and let those in your life love you,
the way that I’ve provided.

Don’t die for the wrong reasons,
don’t hide within your pain.
Let your life be spilt in love,
instead of fear and shame.”

My real questions aren’t
“Do I want to know you, do I want to even try?”
Instead He simply asks,
“Can you come to Me and die?“

~ by Aphiemi on November 1, 2009.